Video : HD. 06'55''
HOME =HO +ME
Could you recognize yourself fully while leaving from the shell in the name of home?
HOME combines two words in it that are HO and ME, and the fist word represents my last name and another one represents myself. Based on the home taping from my birth in 1993 to 1996, I examine the path of growth within Chinese and western culture and how the subconscious pile up through my lifetime. Bringing people back to the Lacan’s Mirror Stage in the period of infants that is the initial formation of selfhood, and constantly involve with the imagination, expectation, alienation, distortion, and the process of wandering between the self and the other.
Collaged with the past home taping and my performance shooting from current computer software, I trim them through juxtaposition, misappropriation and criticism of daily life in the mainstream media. It raises issues on the impact of exotic and local culture, the gender identity awareness, the legitimacy of parents under social system, the emotional blackmail in a family and so on.
In the video, the texts also mix within a variety of realistic and fictional, past and current's daily dialogues and I display them in a bad translation of Chinese and English which creates the state of disorders of consciousness, forming the work with heterogeneous qualities. While allowing viewers to revisit the turbulence of his or her own childhood and putting fragments of a shattered mirror back together which makes the story live through again and again.
英語的家這個字為HOME，可以分別拆成兩個字HO和ME，第一個字代表著我的家族姓氏「何」，第二個字則是進一步探討身在這個家庭結構底下的自己為何物。從自己1993年出生到1996年的家庭錄像中爬梳成長的軌跡、潛意識的堆砌，重返拉康提出的嬰兒時期鏡像階段，為每個人自我認同初步形成的時期，是一個不斷在想像、期望、異化、扭曲與被誤認了的自我與他者之間徘徊的過程。自身影像在過去的家庭錄像與現今的Apple Photo booth軟體粗糙的去背影像混和著，透過選擇、挪用、剪接拼合及批判日常生活中主流媒介，思緒被重新翻動與闡述，包含異國與在地文化的衝擊，性別身份的認同與象徵，社會體制下父母的正當性建構，人與人之間情緒的勒索等。